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Name: Nick
Location: Carteret, New Jersey, United States
Birthday: 2/9/1989
Gender: Male
Interests: Guitar, Last Time Around, Video Games, listening to people imitate me, bands - KoRn, Cradle of Filth, Children of Bodom, Green Day, theOFFSPRING, MetallicA, Papa Roach, Velvet Revolver, Guns N Roses, Led Zeppelin, Pink Floyd, Mudvayne, Riddlin Kidz, Suicidal Tendencies, lostprophets, IroN MaideN, MxPx, Allister, Homegrown, Smashing Pumpkins, New Found Glory, and more. Skateboarding, biking, guitar, more guitar, listening to the aforementioned bands, hangin with the peeps, and telling my horribly corny jokes.
Expertise: Stripping/Pimpizzling << hahaha
Message: message me
AIM:  SixStringRiot 6
Member Since:
11/10/2004
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| As most of my friends would know,
people like to call me angry man. Yeah they think they're just joking
and for a while I did too, but now it's different. It feels degrading.
And I know not to take it seriously, but today this girl in my physics
class is at Rose's sweet 16 and she's like "you always look angry in
school." Jeff was right there.. he laughed. But it hit me. They think
it's funny, but I have the eyes. The eyes that make people think "he
looks pissed off." Or: "He's scary looking." I don't like it anymore.
Yeah, I know, I shouldn't be ashamed of what I've been given. But I'm
not an angry person. I'm not a mean person. I'm not scary. Some people
have charisma to them. Jim, Jeff, Dave.. just a few who anyone would be
comfortable talking to for a first time. But no, not Nick, he looks
like the type that would take someone out. And why? Because I have the
eyes that give that message. I'd kill to have that charisma about me.
Anyone would talk to Jim or Jeff or Dave, but not me. People know them
by reputation. They don't know me. Why? I don't know. I've been told
more than once that people I know were kind of freaked out by me until
they really knew me. And when that girl said I always look angry, it
hit home somewhere. And to tell the truth it really bothered me, and to
tell the truth, it was the first time in my life where I wished I could
change something about myself for real. And now here I am, wallowing
here in weak, useless, senseless self-pity. But nonetheless, the pity
is there, and I am loathesome.. A smile is all it would take, but with
the thought that people are somewhat intimidated by me at first sight
is just enough of a let down to make me forget to even try to smile..
In a world that's as vast as ours, I won't know any of it, all because
my first impressions on appearance mislead people. Why am I the one who
can only show people who I am over time? Why? I don't know. But I do
know I hate it.
My cell phone banner reads, "I'm not angry." so that when someone says
I look like an angry person I can look at it and remind myself that's
not who I am..
..Sad... isn't it?
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| And other times...
Well, let's see.. I don't really know why I'm updating becasue I don't
know what to update about. I'm tired of school, I want winter break..
or the couple days for thanksgiving to finally get here. Both are
coming up soon, but I mean, I want them now haha. The end of the
quarter is this Friday. I have a bad feeling about it all. I don't
know, I just think I didn't do so hot this quarter. I have to like nail
my math test to pull off hopefully a B. I don't know about history, but
I should be doing good in that class. I have like a 90 in Latin, so
that's good. Physics should be a B or B+, so I guess the only ones I'm
worried about are Math and I guess History because I'm not really sure
about that class. Oh well, only time will tell. I think I should do OK
I guess.
Uhhhhh yesterday I hung out with steve
and bottom line is, guitars were not our friend, by time we got to play
it was after dinner so it was about nine because before that we had to
get all of our stuff from Matt's house. It was weird bringing all my
stuff out of his house for probably the last time. Oh well, such is the
bread of an everyday life. <- go Flogging Molly, go! haha, I'm a
loser.
That's it, Later.
Nick
...You are yourself.
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| We were the kings..
Ok, time for a real entry in
this thing. It's been a while since I actually have updated. Hmm well
since this is before school, it's gotta be a little quick. Yesterday
was a day off because of All Saints Day, score one for catholic
schools. Monday was halloween and I went out with John Dennis Chris and
Steve (Colditz, not big Steve) then after that we went to Chris' house
to hang out. Afterward me and John went to Jeff's to hang out for a
little bit. It was a good day. The day before that (Sunday) Steph came
over, and almost didn't becuase her mom got hurt and had to go to the
hospital but she was ok in the end (which is very good). I had a lot of
fun with Steph and Sunday. I can't really remember what I did
Saturday... OH right, I slept over John's on Friday and then on
Saturday we (my friends and I) all went out to get masks for Halloween.
We had awesome masks by the way. Everything else I've missed for the
past week or two is fading me, so I don't really remember everything
that's gone on. Chorus today, so I have to miss philosophy club, maybe
it'll still be going on by time I'm done. Who knows. It's November, and
soon it will be December, which means Christmas, but also very cold
weather. December is also one year for me and Steph! That makes me
happy but like whoa at the same time because a year is a really long
time. I love you Steph! ( I know you'll read this someday.)
Well I guess that's it for now, not too bad for being done in 3 minutes.
Later,
Nick
..of the Kilburn High.
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| Open your eyes,
Well, it's been a very nice long weekend. Let's see what I did.
Saturday I went bowling with Steph and Luisa. I came in second, and
Steph won, and poor Luisa got last. She started off slow, but started
to get better as the game went on. We only played one game because we
wanted to go back home after that. So after that we went to Steph's and
then hung out and at night Steph came with me to Ryan's house for cake.
That was fun too. I had a very fun day with Stephanie.
Sunday I hung out with Jeff and we visited John at work, and got free
donuts and a hot chocalate. Then Jeff came over and ate dinner, then we
went to John's and slept over with Dennis. Today we went to Jerry's
uncle's warehouse (sort of) and played with airsoft gun's. It was fun,
I liked it. But I don't think it was good enough to get me to buy my
own.
After that I came home, showered, slept, did homework and now I'm talking to Steph! Yay!
Wednesday are PSAT's and maybe after that I'll go to Steph's house
because it's our 10 month anniversary! yay for that too! I love you
Steph!
That's all for now...
I don't want school again tomorrow.
Nick
Look up to the skies and see..
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